TS Eliot

“Footfalls echo in the memory, down the passage we did not take, towards the door we never opened, into the rose garden.”
T.S. Eliot, Four Quartets

Son

July 26, 2017

 

Son
By Joe Schneberger

Shaken awake by my toddler son
What’s wrong
It’s dark
I’m afraid
It’s okay
Come lay by my side

I love you dad
I love you too son
I’ll always be by your side dad
I know

Sunrises and Sunsets
Years glide by
Day by day
High School, College
Trips and jobs to far-away lands and places

No matter where you roam
Whatever comes your way
You’re in my heart
I’m by your side

 

My Seasons

My Seasons
Joe Schneberger

I wake up
The year is new
Cold air
My teeth chatter

Spring comes
The sun warms my bones

Summer takes forever to arrive
And then finally
That perfect day
That perfect night -with fireflies and a perfect full moon over the lake
A night you remember and go to in your mind when its 20 below

Fall arrives
Maple trees change color and welcome the frost
Kids play football
Most of us eat turkey

Snow falls
Mistletoe hangs
A year gone by

I wake up
The year is new
Cold air
My teeth chatter

Mexico 2017

This past February, Judy and I spent three weeks in San Miguel de Allende, Mexico.  We rented a small condo on Airbnb in a very nice area.  We attended an annual major writing conference for five of those days; the conference was awesome (link listed below).  The rest of the time we spend exploring this beautiful artistic community and soaking up the local culture, did some area sightseeing, made some new friends, and generally had a great time!  We liked it some much we decided to go back next year for January and February.

San Miguel

Writer’s Conference

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Retirement

March 16, 2017

You’ll notice a large gap in my posts in this Retirement blog; I’ll do my best to update everything….

Molly and Aaron 

Daughter Molly and son-in-law Aaron returned to Minnesota in November 2016 from their Peace Corp stint in Ethiopia.  They were in country for approximately 10 months and were given the chance for an early “honorable discharge” because of continual political and civil instability in Ethiopia.   Although they learned much from their time in the Peace Corp, they are happy to be back in Minnesota.  Aaron is teaching at a charter school in North Minneapolis and Molly is a teachers’ aid and an occasional substitute teacher at a different charter school in North East Minneapolis.  They are focused on their teaching careers and are enjoying living in North East Minneapolis.

 

Aaron

Son Aaron received received a Master’s of Science degree in the Teaching of Mathematics from the University of Illinois Urbana/Champaign in December 2016.  He has accepted a job teaching high school mathematics in Nanchang, China, starting in late spring 2017.

My First Year of Retirement-2016

I look back on my first full year of retirement- 2016- with surprise and amazement!  Surprise that it went by so fast and amazement because of all the the traveling Judy and I did.

Travel

In January 2016, we went on a Liautaud family boat cruise to the Virgin Islands and we went to the Jimmy John’s convention in Las Vegas.  In February and March, we took a road trip from Minnesota to the Florida Keys.  We drove our Rav 4 with our bicycles on a bike rack in the back and visited many relatives along the way.  We made stops in Illinois, Tennessee, Florida, and spent time on the Gulf Coast in Alabama.   We had a great time!

Home Stuff

Returning home in late March, we spent the spring doing some major home redecorating.

Bond Lake

During the summer, we visited Bond Lake in northwestern Wisconsin spending time with several members of Judy’s family who have places on the lake.

In November 2017 we got our own place on Bond Lake!

January 3, 2016

It’s been a bit over two weeks since my retirement reception.   I had mixed feelings about allowing folks at work to have a reception for me – on one hand I knew I deserved something and wanted some attention for the 37 years I put in at the Fed, but I also wanted to go quietly.  I think that part has to do with the fact that I have very strong introvert tendencies.  Anyway, I did ultimately decide to let them throw me a reception- although I didn’t know what to expect.

So on December 21, 2015, there was a standing room only reception for me at the Fed.  Most of my loved ones were there-my wife Judy, my children Molly and Aaron, my step kids Alex and Tanya, my sister Laurie and her family, my brother in law and sister in law Jeff and MaryAnn, and many friends and coworkers past and present.  I was touched! There were speakers- my immediate boss (and old friend) Karin; her boss Ron; and Neil- a former boss of mine.  I also provided a few remarks. I was overwhelmed by the turn out, the cards, the gifts!  It was humbling, and kind of surreal!

Then we had the Christmas and New Years holiday break.  My last actual day in the office was Monday, December 21 – when I stopped in to turn in my gear- computer, black berry, badge, etc.  There were some tears – but not on my part.  Because I took the rest of my vacation to finish out the year- my actual first day of retirement wasn’t until last Friday- January 1st.  So now I am actually retired.

HOW DOES IT FEEL/HOW AM I DOING/WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?

These seem to be the questions of the day!

The short answers are:

I’m not sure how it feels- I’m just now starting to understand emotionally that I don’t have to go back in to work –that this is not the end of a long holiday break!  Because I don’t know how to approach retirement yet- either on a short or long term basis- I feel in a sort of emotional limbo.

I haven’t made any long term plans yet; everything seems to be changing.

Judy and I are going on a cruise to the Virgin Islands on January 15th for a week- compliments of Judy’s dear brother Jim, who passed away in October.  He had been planning the cruise for some of his family and friends before he died, and his family decided to go through with it. So we are using miles to fly to the Virgin Islands round trip and will go on the cruise.  Then on January 29th, I am having an outpatient medical procedure to correct some chronic sinus problems I have.  On or about February 13th or 14th, Judy and I are taking a winter Snowbird road trip to FL.  We are close to a final travel plan- We are planning on driving by way of Illinois (Galva, Champaign, Herrin), Nashville, Gainesville, and Key West, Kissimmee, FL, and Orange Beach, AL, then back home.

CHANGES

Daughter Molly and her husband Aaron leave for the Peace Corp and Ethiopia on Saturday January 9th.  I am very supportive and excited for them! They are following a dream and will have stories to tell!  But I will miss them so so much and I will worry about them!

Son Aaron and his girlfriend- Blue Sky have been visiting for their holiday break. They go back to school- the U of I at Champaign /Urbana, IL on January 14th or 15th. I’ve had some good quality time and talks with Molly and her husband Aaron.  My son Aaron and Blue Sky will come over tonight to spend a few days with Judy and me – since Blue Sky arrived here on December 23rd they have been staying at Aaron’s moms place- but have been over here a few times – once on Christmas Day and another time they were with us when we went out to dinner at an Italian restaurant with Molly, Aaron, Judy, and my sister Laurie’s family as a sort of a going away get together for Molly. I haven’t really had much quality time with son Aaron so far.

GRATITUDE

I’ve had a few rough days (feeling kind of emotionally numb -and a tad useless) but Judy’s been very supportive! That helps greatly. I look to the future with love, gratitude and optimism.  I am lucky to have this time and some resources in my life to do what I will do- to try to develop creatively, emotionally, spiritually……its all good! And to enjoy things while they are all good! I am blessed!

Well, it’s the middle of July and I’m finally posting again!  I talked to Molly today- I called her, she’s in Ethiopia with the Peace Corp ( along with her husband Aaron).  She sounded great- very positive!

2 thoughts on “Retirement”

  1. I am very glad you decided to have the party! It was nice to see you in your work environment with all of the people you interact with and to hear their stories and praises. Thank you for always loving and supporting us and for worrying (because it means you care!). You are one of our biggest cheerleaders! To the future for us all, hopefully along a path of growth. ❤ -Molly

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    • Thanks for your nice comment! I’m excited for you and Aaron about your upcoming adventure!
      Love
      Dad